Following God Part 2!

So, time for personal admission. I WAS WRONG! And being wrong has never felt so good in my entire life. Satan, is very good at what he does, let me tell ya. You see, it's just like I said, following God should be the most natural thing in the world. That means, as long as you are doing everything you can to make Him the center of your life and your life is glorifying Him, common sense is a good guide to what God's will is for your life. Romans 12:2 says "Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will." We should not live our lives walking the "tight rope" of knowing God's will. God wants us to know his will!
So here's what happened. I really had been struggling because I didn't know 100% what God wanted. All the while I was blind to the things that were screaming at me to stay with Tara. I don't really feel like taking the time or energy to talk about those here but if you want to know just ask and I'll be happy to tell you. Anyways, I allowed my vision to become clouded by uncertainty. I allowed Satan to slip in and slowly eat away at me. In a brief moment of frustration and decision I broke up with her, not really taking time to pray and thing about the situation. It was so hard and I cried like a little baby (actually a really big one.) That was my first clue, since when does breaking up deeply hurt the person doing the breaking up. Also, if it was the right thing, then why did I still have those back and forth feelings? I was reminded about the obvious signs from God about our relationship but in attempt to make things less complicated, brushed them off. I tend to do that when I just don't want to deal with things.
This whole week I've been in a sort of slump, obviously, but I didn't let it stop me from seeking God. I've prayed so much this week and really tried to seek God. Tuesday night, Richard and I went out to talk. We got Frosty's and went and sat on the steps of Webster Baptist. We talked for quite some time and finally realized that we were cold and went inside. What a blessing that it was unlocked! We stayed for a minute and I took Richard back to campus, grabbed my Bibles and went back. I stayed there for quite some time just trying to listen to what God for me. At about 2:00am I finally went back to campus. Wednesday i was till in a slump but started to get better. After talking to Faith, that changed and I was as confused as ever. not from anything she said but because I talked a whole lot and started seeing that things weren't quite lining up. I went back to Webster to pray and was quite blessed to find that Matt Bishop was there. We talked for what seemed like 20 minutes but was actually about an hour!! When he left I spent some time with God alone. And alone was how I felt. My prayers seemed to hit the sanctuary ceiling and fall flat on the floor. I left slightly frustrated but still wanting to know God's will.
Enter Thursday, stage left. What a day! It was amazingly gorgeous, God is quite awesome! On Thursdays, for those who don't know, I go to a Bible study at my friend's house. It is the most spiritually uplifting time of every week. Afterwards, I really wanted to talk to David (the guy who runs it) about my situation. Pretty much before I even finished explaining the situation, he basically called me crazy. David is the one that explained the thing about using common sense to me. Also there to talk about this situation were Richard, Matt B., and a new friend, Jeremy Gross. Jeremy had a lot to say about the subject and I knew that the Holy Spirit was speaking through him. It was a great night! Pretty much as a group of 4 guys we managed to point out my stupidity and confidently came to the conclusion that I was wrong. I was so happy!! immediately mine and Richard's spirits were lifted. We said goodbye to everyone, got Frosty's, grabbed some stuff at the dorm and went to Webster to pray. When we got back I knew that I had to talk to Tara right then. So I called her, told her I was stupid, she already knew that and responded with "Duh." It was so awesome! It was like she was just letting me get worked out and learn what I needed to. That isn't to say that she was hunky-dory the whole week, but it is to say that God had been speaking to her and she was always there waiting. She forgave me and we got things worked out! We prayed together and there were definitely no prayers bouncing off of any ceilings.
So, for you curious people, there it is. I'm sure I left out a lot of stuff but that's enough and it's late, so deal with it. Bottom line: I messed up, hurt someone in the process, sought after God, and was brought to my senses. Although I do wish this had not happened there has been so much good to come from it. For me personally, I learned a lot about hearing from God and discerning His voice. Though it hurt, Tara and I both (and Richard oddly enough) learned a little about ourselves and our relationship. God is so amazing! Only He can take my screw-ups and turn them around to be so good. Praise God!!!!!!!
There's a few people I need to thank for being there for me this past week. First of all, God; duh, haha. Every one else includes Richard, Faith, David, Matt B, and Jeremy. Last but definitely not least, I have to thank Tara. And hey, if you've gotten this far, that means you actually care about me (or skipped down) and I want to thank you.
There's one last question: do we now celebrate October 27, 2007 or February 14, 2008? haha.